A King of Everything and Nothing

5 days ago I was on multiples of adventures throughout the month, and I enjoyed the hell out of it, but, I didn’t feel like it meant much without outside gratification, I kinda felt empty.

So I decided to text her, and that brought my world  me crashing down through digital walls. So comes my night terrors that disappear with the light as it is now. I am awake, but I’ve done it again.. invested too much and lost… and here I stand once again in debate whether I should go through with this. What options do I have though? sit here with a shattered core, wallowing in lost love? or do I tear it out and live life vicariously through my heartless, ruthless, self-loathing entity for another few years? well if you know me you already know after writing that out I have made my choice.

My happiness should never depend on another person, and that is what I forgot.

I am independent, but I’ve become so comfortable with someone by my side.

I desire support, but not at the cost of losing myself.

I am strong, but not as strong without the love of my friends like you.

I’m in so much pain, its near unbearable

I think I’ve had too much held in, the stress is really killing me.. but what to do? this whole drinking days on end is definitely not a solution… meh

My nights have been epic, but I’m sure this is just the prelude for whats to come

was also a great night, but this is the hour which you say good night from my side, and good morrow from your side… yay!

definitely had a good night

Don’t remind me
That some days I’m the windshield
And other days I’m just a lucky bug
These cold iron rails
Leave old mossy trails
Through the countryside
The crow and the beanfield
All my best friends, but boy I need a hug

(Boy I need a hug)

‘Cause my heart stops without you
There’s something about you
That makes me feel alive

If the green left the grass on the other side
I would make like a tree and leave
But if I reached for your hand, would your eyes get wide
Who knew the other side could be so green

Don’t remind me
I’m a chickadee in love with the sky
But that’s clearly not a lot to crow about
‘Cause when the stars silhouette me
I’m scared they’ll forget me and flicker out
I taste honey but I haven’t seen the hive
Yeah, I didn’t look, I didn’t even try

But still my heart stops without you
There’s something about you
That makes me feel alive

If the green left the grass on the other side
I would make like a tree and leave
But if I reached for your hand, would your eyes get wide
Who knew the other side could be so green

We are honey and the bee

Backyard of butterflies surrounded me
I fell in love with you like bees to honey
Let’s up and leave the weeping to the willow tree
And pour our tears in the sea

I swear! 
There’s a lot of vegetables out there
That crop up for air
Yeah, I never thought
We were two peas in a pod
To be suddenly bloomed
And I knew that I’d always love you

Oh, I’ll always love you too

If the green left the grass on the other side
I would make like a tree and leave
But if I reached for your hand, would your eyes get wide
Who knew the other side could be so green

If the green left the grass on the other side
I would make like a tree and leave
But if I reached for your hand, would your eyes get wide
Who knew the other side could be so green

If I reached for your hand for the rest of my life
Who knew the other side could be so green